||[Nov. 30th, 2004|09:28 am]
Well, though I still have 14.5 hours left in NaNoWriMo, I've given up. It's not possible for me to write 12,000 words and still go to work and do what I'm supposed to do as an adult. I'll probably manage another 2,000 tonight, and that'll leave me at 40,000 words for the month of Novemeber.
But I'm declaring victory anyways.
I'm a little disappointed that I'm not going to make it, sure. If I'd put my nose to the grindstone, I could have done it. And, in some ways, I blame World of Warcraft for me not making it - but if I'd felt so strongly about getting NaNoWriMo done, then I would have been able to exert better willpower, and I was behind going into the weekend as well.
What NaNoWriMo did was convince me that I can still write. When I was in high school, I wrote a novel-ish length story, probably suitable for NaNoWriMo. I woke at 2-3am every morning and set fingers to keyboard, typing until I left for school that day. I printed out a copy every morning and gave it to my friends to read at school. When I was finished, I gave it to my Mom who said I should get it published. That story wasn't really very good, but with editing, maybe it could have been publishable (I have my doubts).
Familiar, in many ways, is a similar story. It talks about a pair of kids, both granted supernatural powers, who are faced with situations both magical and not that they have to overcome. It's a lot darker of a story than The School was. The School had a token ghost, and fears that someone could take over your mind and make you do horrible things, without any real teeth behind it. No one lost anything real. In Familiar, the two main characters are suffering, losing more and more as they go on. I wrote a scene yesterday which involved one of the characters losing something that I considered might be too much. There's a reason for it plot-wise, and it makes logical sense that things happened that way, but I still hesitated for a good hour or two going into the scene because I wondered whether it was too much.
Who knows, it may come out on editing - but I doubt it.
The quality of writing in Familiar, while not spectacular (after all, it hasn't been edited yet), is head and shoulders above The School. That's saying something, considering I feel that Familiar is lacking a lot of description of scenes and people that it could benefit from. In The School, almost 90% of the story is dialogue. I'm not joking. Some of it is very funny dialogue, but that doesn't change the fact that the story just isn't as good as it could be. Maybe when I finish Familiar, I'll go back and finally rewrite The School. I'm going to set aside all the grandiose plans I had to Make Everything Make Sense and Have A Magic System That Is Physically Possible, and just go with what I feel is important, which is the story. It's nice to be one of those authors that can make a perfect magic system, but that isn't what I'm good at (yet) and I'm not sure I want to try and develop it specifically.
What NaNoWriMo 2004 is for me is proof that I can still write.