||[Jan. 10th, 2008|09:24 am]
Well, no writing last night, but I did do 500 words this morning. The piece I worked on, tentatively named "Castle", is a character-driven narrative which I'm just letting go as it pleases. It may not end up publishable, but it gives me something to write on when I really can't give Morning Star the attention that it needs, to keep my fingers and mind toned.
I'm slowly progressing through Familiar, taking down an outline. Some of the plot problems are becoming vividly clear as I do so, as well as the obvious answers on how to change them; for example, I've determined that the Familiar-addiction concept is one I'm not planning to address, so I need to take out some of Dana's extreme reactions in the fourth or fifth chapter, and turn it into a clear conflict between her and her father. That's not so bad. My outline, I think, is too wordy. But, as in all things, practice makes perfect, and the real amazing thing is that I'm actually making progress.
I suppose I've finally decided that I'm going to get myself published. Now, it's just a matter of putting it into action. My quota of five hundred words a day isn't so bad, and having something that I don't have to be particularly serious about makes it even easier. Five hundred words is so laughably easy to someone who has produced over 3,000 words in a day, when she abjectly didn't want to, that it seems stupid to fight over doing it. If I get going, of course, I continue. (Unfortunately, I couldn't this morning, because I have work.) Then, when I have time, I work on Familiar.
I think, despite all of the obstacles in my way, that I can do this. And while I'm uncertain about the style I am adopting - the astute will notice an abundance of commas in my sentences, these days - I'm seeing it develop. That feels wonderful. I feel like I'm able to convey my ideas easier. I'm noting how I paragraph, how I design my sentences, and I'm making conscious decisions on what I like and don't like. I've ruthlessly eliminated the frequent use of the one sentence paragraph. I'm learning to describe both scenes and actions, and while I'm still not very good at it, I'm getting better. I just have to keep that in mind, and not get discouraged. I can do this.